Dear someone, I tried my best to move on, to forget and to find someone better. I just don't know why I can't seem to do that. Everytime I try to get one step forward, I always end up thinking about what we could've had, then I end up backing up and staying there for good. It's not you, it's me. Problem is, I've already forgotten you, but what I find it hard to forget is what we had and what you made me feel. I feel like I lost alot when I lost you. Maybe it really is me. I was such a coward for not fighting for you. But then again, maybe, it is you. Somehow. If you really loved me, you wouldn't even let me fight for you in the first place, just 'cause I have nothing to fight for. 'Cause you're mine. And rest assured that I have nothing to loose. You know, honestly speaking, I think there's still a part of you here in my heart. I hate to admit it but the only happiness I can find right now is reminiscing [i]us[/i]. Your kiss, your hugs, your lame old jokes and your wise guy remarks. Your smile.. eyes.. damn it. But what's ironic is that, that happiness I get from remembering us, also brings me sadness and depression. Thinking about what could've happened if we're still together now. I have never loved someone in my life like this before. It's been 7 months, the pain is numb, but the feelings are still here. And I hate it. Fuck you. Give me my soul back.

Last edited by Jhncys (2012-05-14 00:58:57)