It's been one stressful month. I'm barely holding on. But I'm trying. I can't wait to see you though. It's this kind of joy I get when I see my food being brought to me. Hahaha
All this self control and giving each other space will be worth it.
I'm so weird.
Sometimes I just find myself singing [i]"Hark the herald angels sing, glory to the newborn king. Peace on earth and mercy mild, God and sinners reconciled"[/i], especially when I'm not focusing on something. Then I freak out every time I finish the line and ask myself, "Where the hell did that come from?" every time. Every. Time.
Gash why
^ hala. Double personalities hahahahHaha jk.
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[spoiler]today my ex asked me "why are you not talking to me? You called me a liar then you stopped answering my calls." And I suddenly felt nervous and the most stupid thing I did was act dumb and pretend that I didn't know what he was talking about. My mistakes from 2014 are biting me in the butt, man. I havent seen him in months and it was a one-time thing and if it weren't for my friend's party we wouldn't even reconnect. nigga howd u even find me just leave me alone!!! 😭 it scares me how small this world really is. I'm not the same girl he met a year ago 😩 I want to spend time with my friends but if youre gonna be there...lols forget it. 😩 you can pay 5 bucks and see me perform at school tho but thats the closest you're ever gonna get 😂🔫[/spoiler]
Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there.
But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.
Just thinking of the past and how I felt abandoned before. If that didn't happen, I wouldn't know how to be independent today. Also, getting a ticket made me feel like an adult lol. Yay. I'm excited. I might live downtown too.
my clanmates during clan wars:
cm1: pwede ko bang i-attack yung #23 guys?
cm2: yung katapat ko nalang, baka kaya mo.
cm1: uh, eh kasi gusto ko yung 23. blah, blah, reasons.
cm2: sige na, ikaw bahala. malaki ka na.
hahahaha just cracked me up. lol