[spoiler][size=1]^ Lol you're not alone. Hahaha I fear death too and sometimes when i'm in the midst of doing one of my shameful addictions (i.e. pornography), I pause and look at the ceiling and just think, "if I died right now, I would be in hell tonight." But I'm always reminded of the God who sent His son as a sacrifice for our sins. Our sins have been paid for so we don't have to burn in Hell forever. And I feel so undeserving, but God already made a way so we should embrace it and change for the better while there's still time. [hr] In all honesty, of course I know some things will be easier if I were never born. My parents and my friends do not have to deal with my stubborness /: My parents' lives would be so much easier if they only had three children instead of four. I could go on and on and on, but I like to be optimistic and believe that I can eventually do things in the future so I can repay my parents...even if I know nothing can ever repay that effort and love they've constantly showed me.[/size][/spoiler]