[i]Nasabi ko na ang dapat nyong marinig. Kaya eto lang ang sasabihin ko: Di nyo na magagamit mga gadgets ko. Di nyo na rin mahihiram laptop at broadband ko. Mas lalong di nyo na maibabalik kung ano samahan meron tayo bago kayo gumawa ng isang bagay na ayoko. Bahala na kayong mag-isip na kung anong negative remarks tungkol sa akin. Sa inyo ko lang naman ipapakita yun eh.[/i]
There is really something wrong with me. Realized it just this summer. Maybe that's why my high school friends already forgot me. Well it's fine to me. I started not to care. I don't get sad anymore. I just hate being too emotional.... but being like this, too [i]manhid[/i] is a little bit scary too.
This is great. I can say whatever I want here without people judging me and knowing who i am. I hate both of my parents esp. my mom. I dont even know if she loves me or just because she's being forced to raise me because i am her child. Bet she loves her new husband and step daughter more than me. Whenever I get into an argument or into a fight with her husband, she scolds me and never listen to me. Imma get out of this fvckin house soon. I just have no idea where to go lol
[spoiler]I guess I'm going back to the PH for good because my parents are filing their divorce papers. I'm not complaining but I really wanted to get a degree here. Lol one problem after another. I don't even know what to think or how to feel about everything. Oh well.[/spoiler]
I don't know. I just don't know what's happening about us. It's just that I can't explain why he still stares at me whenever I'm around, but sometimes he's obviously staying away from me. I can feel him. I wanted to stay away too and I'm doing it. I don't know if it hurts him because he can see me when I'm staying away. But why does he feel so sad when I'm doing it? I thought he doesn't love me anymore. He shouldn't be acting like that. But I want him back. Oh no no, I've said it. I hate this feeling. I know we're never ever getting back together. But who knows? Maybe someday. I wish.
[spoiler]Unintentionally, I saw his picture all over again and I admit that I miss him. It's now starting in my head to flashback all the things that we're doing when we're still together, all the time that we've been through. I miss him. I just really miss him, even though I know that I shouldn't because we are never ever getting back together.[/spoiler]
[spoiler]I am currently moving on without a purpose. Nothing. It's just happening and I just really really feel so good whenever I think of this, "I don't remember him at this moment. I just did." My new set of friends taught me how to forget him in many times, that's why I'm not that too stressed and distracted now. I feel so good, really good. It's good without him. [/spoiler]
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[spoiler]I tried writing a lenghty one for this thread, but decided to save it in my computer instead. I realized I can't be too honest, and it all just felt wrong. Guess I'm keeping my feelings again to myself. /:[/spoiler]