^Dang gurl, i'm having a head ache bc of you.
[spoiler]Anyway my only advice for you is this...
Gurl, if you really like him then muster up your courage and confess [i]agad-agad[/i] before it's too late and he's already very popular with other girls!
And please, wag mo siyang gawing 'reserba'. Kasi it seems to me that bc you're so fixated about your past relationship that you want it so bad to work, nababalewala mo na unintentionally yung feelings niya para sayo. Gurl, sinasayang mo lahat kasi you keep on obsessing about your past! Stop!
What you're doing is, you keep hoping na magwo-work pa rin kayo ng past mo. And kung hindi na, okay lang, kasi nandyan naman yung bago mo. And now you're wallowing about him kasi he's dead and gone, and like you said, you're missing the attention he gave you kaya ganyan.
Gurl I'm sorry to say this, pero it's all your fault this time, eh. :l
Gurl be strong. Next time this happens and you like someone, like him alone at wala ng iba. Be loyal... like a dog. Hahahahah jk
And btw, delete mo na talaga yang picture sa wallpaper mo. Iniwan ka pala eh, walang kwenta yan. Ang tunay na lalake, hindi nang-iiwan ng babae sa ere. Tsk, tsk.
Kay, that's about all.
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